December 2019

I was trying to work out how to depict when I was at work and when I was off. I played with the pink background, but that's too much, so on days I'm working I'm going to have the background as the greeny-grey and on days I'm off I'm going to keep the standard background. That seems to be the best way to differentiate between the different days. Because Google Sites has now introduced collapsible text, I'm going to use the title as the date & day as well as the workout that I did and I'm going to use the text section underneath for my thoughts and my internal monologue of the day, and then post a single picture for my Apple Health stats for the day under it.

19-12-22 Sunday 22 December - I think this blog needs a change

Because of this new, potential, problem with my wrist, I think I need to change the way this blog is written. I need to concentrate on just closing my rings and being as active as I can, rather than trying to do weights again because I might hurt my wrist more. So I think I need to concentrate on closing my rings and trying to do as much cardio as I can and get weights out and try again. I'm not happy about it, but I can't take the risk that something worse happens to my wrist.

Looks like there's a lot of meditation and Sh'BAM in my future!

19-12-22 Sunday 22 December

I give up! Totally!

I have a feeling I have Carpal Tunnel Syndrome (CTS), I have all the symptoms on the website and have done for about 3 weeks, maybe longer. I didn't think anything of it at first, I thought I'd slept funny because my wrist was excruciatingly painful every morning for a few days. I woke up with pins and needles in my whole right hand and I couldn't move my wrist, for quite a few mornings recently, more often than not if I'm honest. I still thought that I slept funny, but in the last week or so I've lost some of my ability to grip with my thumb and I can't rotate my wrist fully.

I've got a compression glove thing that I've borrowed from Mother to wear during the day and a proper medical wrist splint with metal in it to stop my wrist moving that I wear overnight, hopefully that'll help.

But it does mean that y weight lifting/BodyPump sessions might not be able to start this week, or next week, or in January 2020, or ever. This is not good.

I wanted to make a start on going back to weights again in January, it's on my 2020 Plans, but that might not be the best plan if I actually do have CTS. I thought that I needed to just strengthen my muscles and get a bit fitter and I love BodyPump so that was awesome, but if I have a trapped nerve in my wrist there's probably a lot in BodyPump that I can't do, or even if I can do it, I could do harm to myself. Don't think I can do BodyBalance either, or yoga or anything like that because of using my wrists for things like Down Dog. It's so limiting. Thankfully my dissertation is over and I don't have to try and type that now. That could have been what did it, it was pretty intense, it could have been building up and my dissertation pushed it over the edge.

At least with my 2 websites, I can do whatever I want and however much I want or don't want to be able to keep up to date without hurting myself even more. I might have to move where my MBA is, so that I don't have my wrist at an odd angle, that might help, and it's simple to achieve, so I might try that.

On the plus side, yesterday I discovered all 14 Seasons of NCIS are on Amazon Prime Video, which is awesome!

I also have a lump on the left side of my face, which I have a feeling is an ear infection, so I'm going to try and get a doctors appointment Monday or Tuesday to see if I can get antibiotics or if it's something different. It only came up in the last few days, so hopefully I can get it sorted out before Christmas.

It seems like my entire body is conspiring against me!

So it looks like Sh'BAM and mindfulness & meditation figure largely in my future, but cardio is good, #shbamgirl #shbamforlife #itsnotexerciseitsdance #shbamsquad #loverachaelnewsham

But I currently feel all weak and watery! I don't like being feak & weeble!

So I've moved the MBA, it's now on a lap tray on my lap rather than on my swivel table, which should put it at a different angle and it's already easier to type, so that's what I need to do now, maybe for ever, but at least for the moment. It's taking the pressure off my wrist because I can rest my wrist on the sections on the side of the track pad, so I'm hoping that should make it easier to write, and it seems to be working so far, I can type faster and it's not as painful as it was 10 minutes ago, so that's a start!

19-12-21 Saturday 21 December

Meditation #02 Body Scan & Les Mills Mindfulness Body Scan #02

We were supposed to be going to the hospital to see our brother, who has yet again injured his already broken leg! He had a bone graft on Wednesday (we didn't find out about it until yesterday), but all my joints are aching, I'm going hot and cold and I have the startings of a sore throat so I don't want to go to the hospital and give him yet another thing to have to cope with!

Mother and I are out tonight at the theatre, so I think a chilled out day is the best thing for me today. I wanted to have a cheeky Sh'BAM today, but I don't think I'm up to that! I'm thinking Mindfulness: Body Scan and Breathing #01 might be a better plan.

It's so difficult to not be able to work out when you want to, but it's important to listen to your body and know when a work out is a good idea and when it's not. It's so hard to not work out when it's the only thing on your mind, even though you know it's a bad idea and that you can meditate and centre yourself and that's just as important, but when all you want to do is work out, it's really difficult to not want to push through whatever your body is telling you, and work out any way.

19-12-20 Friday 20 December

Meditation #01 & #03 Breathing

Today was so much fun!

I went out with Mother to two garden centres, and then we had Fry Up Friday for dinner (which lasted 5 hours of dinner & chatting), it was an awesome day!

I had a meditation session when I went to get dressed before we went out, and then I did another one before bed, pure bliss!

19-12-19 Thursday 19 December

Meditation #01 Breathing


19-12-18 Wednesday 18 December

Meditation #02 Body Scan

So I decided that I'd had enough and really needed to go back to the gym, but I also miss the opportunity to be mindful and doing meditation.

Being mindful and taking care of your mental health is just as important as your physical health, some would argue more important because if your mental health isn't great, then you can't work on your physical health until you've improved your mental health and are better prepared to tackle your physical health.

I'm utterly in love with the Meditation #02 Body Scan from Les Mills On Demand, it's beautiful in my opinion and so refreshing and sensual.

19-12-18 Wednesday 18 December - Yet again, I needed a new plan!

Where I made my mistakes:

So many times over the last few months I came up with a new plan...and guess what...none of them have worked.

Because I work a 3/3 pattern (3 days on and 3 days off), I can't get a weekly plan together because I don't have a 7 day schedule, and I think it's so important to work with what you have and not what you wished you had. I have an amazing job and I wouldn't change it for the world, I work for 3 days and then have 3 days off, it's awesome! But because of this, any workout routine that works on a 7 day cycle, is never going to work!

The problems that I've had before, with the getting up at 5am and all that wonderful stuff, are all on the basis of a 7 day week, and that doesn't work! Also, getting up at 5am is great, however, when there are fireworks going off until 11pm or even midnight, being able to go to bed at 8pm just isn't possible. I tried to treat each day exactly the same, trying to get up at 5am or before, to be able to work out before work or before I started my day, and it was amazing, I loved getting up at that time in the morning, carving out a little bit of time for me every morning, before life gets in the way and I can't get into working out, but as the winter came, and specifically Guy Fawkes Night, where everyone in my area set off fireworks solidly for two weeks, I couldn't go to bed at 7 or 8pm because of the dogs, their welfare is far more important than me being able to get up at 5am, so that had to go. Until consumers can't buy fireworks any more and upset dogs and cats all up and down the land, I'll never be able to get up at 5 and work out.

I considered each day the same, I didn't make allowances for work and non-work days, and that was always going to be a struggle. I wanted to have a daily routine, no matter what was going on, whether that was working out at 5am, or at 2:30pm when I got home from work, I was being too rigid in my routines, trying to make everything fit the same, and that's just not how my life is at the moment. I needed to accept that I have to be more fluid, and that one size doesn't fit all. I can't have one routine, it just doesn't work, so I need to regroup and make a 6 day routine, split into 2 x 3 day routines.

So I have to work with what I have, and I think this time I might have cracked it!

The first 2 days I'm working, I'll concentrate on mindfulness and meditation after work, being able to be present in the moment and focus on my spiritual health. On the last day of work I'm going to get back into Body Pump. Starting gradually at first because I know I'm going to get DOMS for the first few times and I want to make sure that I have 3 days off after weights so that I don't need to be at work limping around and saying ouch every two minutes! Then on my days off, I'm going to get back into Sh'BAM and when that's established, I'll put another weights session in when I know that I won't be moping around the office!

So the new plan will probably look something like this at the beginning:

  • Work day one: mindful meditation after work
  • Work day two: mindful meditation after work
  • Work day three: Body Pump
  • Off day one: Sh'BAM
  • Off day two: Sh'BAM
  • Off day three: Sh'BAM

This is where I want to be:

  • Work day one: Sh'BAM & meditation/yoga
  • Work day two: Sh'BAM & meditation/yoga
  • Work day three: Body Pump & meditation/yoga
  • Off day one: Sh'BAM & meditation/yoga
  • Off day two: Sh'BAM & meditation/yoga
  • Off day three: Body Pump & meditation/yoga

I still want to make sure that I do mindfulness meditation, but I might add it on after another workout, rather than as a replacement. Something like Sh'BAM then a shower followed by a Body Scan sounds great!

I know that at the beginning I won't be able to do Body Pump and then Sh'BAM for 3 days straight after that, but I can work on getting to that point. At this moment in time, I just want to make sure that I close all 3 rings every day, how I get there isn't important at the moment, that can come later. As you can see, where I want to be seems to be a good mix between cardio, strength and mindfulness, so I'm hoping that I can get to this.

Where I use to be, almost 2 years ago:

I know that it only took me about 1-2 months of strict discipline to be able to do this, every week:

  • Monday night - Body Jam & Pilates (cardio & flexibility)
  • Tuesday night - Sh'BAM (cardio)
  • Wednesday night - Body Pump (strength training)
  • Thursday night - Body Jam (cardio)
  • Friday night - Sh'BAM (cardio)
  • Saturday morning - Sh'BAM & Body Jam (cardio)
  • Sunday morning - Body Pump (strength training)

But that was back in January 2018, and we're rapidly approaching January 2020, so it'll probably take me longer to get back into the swing of things. Not to mention, that was a 7 day plan, and I don't have that now, I have 6 days, and now I'm almost 40!

19-12-17 Tuesday 17 December

We're almost at the end of December '19 and I haven't written anything on my blog for months!

There are lots of reasons for that, not least that I handed in my MSc Dissertation at the end of November and I needed to take some me time! I'll be 40 in April and I've been in education of some form or another for the last 35 years, I think I deserve a little bit of a break!

So I've not worked out in, well, forever. When I was working on my dissertation as well as working at the same time, there simply wasn't enough hours in the day. I know that some people might think that's an excuse, but it isn't, it's a reason, two very different things. Being 100% present at work (during some very challenging shift changes) and then being 100% present at home for my dissertation meant that any down time I did manage to find was spend sleeping!

19-12-17 Another cracking video from Jordan

Jordan is so accessible and honest, you can't help but like him! This video, once again, shows how amazing and straight talking he is about all thing weight loss or weight gain, depending on your goals. He's a breath of fresh air in an industry that many people feel isolated from.